A Thought In My Mind

God, It's been months now, Wth no word and no sign, I had once made you a vow, But now It's lost in my wine. When I was a child, You led him to me, He taught me to be wild, You answered my plea. God I was alone, And so very scared, I prayed with every bone, That you would hear my prayer. I'm eighteen years old, I've been for half a year He didn't show for my birthday, I struggled but I didn't shed a tear. I try and I try to hate him, He left me by myself, I try to dictate him, As someone who only cares for hisself. I try to be angry, But I can't manage it for long, I only end up missing him, And listening to his song. God, you let me lose my brother, Now I only want him back, He's too important for me to lose, Without him my strength will crack. I'm graduating soon, I've got an extra ticket with his name, It'll happen in June, If he isn't there it'll be a shame. I miss him God, I miss him so much, I try not to think about him, But he's a thought my mind will always touch.