AMUSING MUSINGS:
Micro Tale #367: "ALLUSIONS" by Leon Enriquez
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Thoughts wing by non-stop. Like all fleeting things, thoughts come and go undisrupted. Mostly, thoughts wear an unconscious twist like the ocean waves.
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Yes, thoughts offer a touch unique to wonderful possibilities. Yet, thoughts fly floating here and there. Just like the ever-changing patterns of sensuous whim and fickle fancy. Most of the time just coming and going without purpose.
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Sometimes, I try to stop thinking. But, I feel that the thought-tap is always on.
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I imagine that my feeling sensation is truly the guardian of my consciousness. Feeling subconsciously stands guard to filter away thoughts that act contrary to my habit patterns. So, what I think I am thinking is really my default habit pattern.
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My subconscious mind runs the vast array of acceptable thought forms. Conscious control can be a tedious choice and the mind map seem somewhat awkward. Once a new habit is formed through frequent enough conscious repetition, the subconscious takes over like an automatic device. There is now no need to be conscious of the action steps to initiate a reactive response.
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Sometimes, I watch my thoughts like a curious spectator. Curiosity is an agent of wonder. Wonder is the fruit of curious endowment. Curiosity salutes blessings. Wonder is the truly the invitation to notice the ample glimpses of grace.
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I am now the watcher. Simply observing and watching the mind games conjured by agents of opposite poles. There's a good guy, the saintly advocate. And there's a bad guy, the devil's advocate. Both sides want to seize control of my mental situation. Both are cynical and judgemental archetypes yet complementary to existence. Both are naturally quarrelsome fellows who would bulldoze their way home!
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Standing in-between these polar opposites, my soul dilemma is real in this dualistic worldview. I am finding my way trying to cruise to an acceptable home run. Always, good and bad are matching wills and I am stuck in-between the desire for one or the other. I am a house torn apart by decision and indecision!
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Naturally, I often fall on my own accord. And, I try my best to get up each time I fall down. Sometimes, I stay down flat on my face. Just so that I can recuperate and consider my alternatives. My life, it seems, is a wonderful trip that's lovely. And yet, a fiery journey in a dangerous and very volatile world of outcomes.
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I make so many mistakes along the way. Failure is a way of learning along the journey. Mistakes and failure taste like bitter gall. But the fruits of these humbling moments are sweet if I grasp the lessons on the highways of life.
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Today's good fix is tomorrow's bad deal. Win some or lose some, or even draw some. Luckily, sanguine moments reveal a doorway beyond impasse or failure. The middle way beckons -- with due diligence and recognition of evolving enlightenment. Yes, enlightenment is to cast off each burden so that I feel light. Yes, to feel lighter and lighter thus ascending to a higher mode of synchronicity.
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Or better still, I seek that inner stillness for true inspiration. Life is hard on the outside but mostly mellow on the inside just like a crab! Wonder attracts curiosity. Pleasure complements pain.
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The wanderer's heart and soul work best in the poignant quest for the home-bound journey. Stress and strain are necessities of the journey from unknown to known.
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Desire is a prerequisite of happiness. Desire grows in the recognition of joy. Desire is joy knocking at the heart's door from the inside out.
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So many allusive intersections. So many contrary paradoxes. So many trying distractions. Choice is about poise. Charm is about style. Cheer is the best medication for a broken heart. Yet, how can I get a grip on poise if I cannot focus my attention? Too many choices, not enough of motivation. That's the thing about thoughts.
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Yet, often enough, when the cookie crumbles, I get glimpses of immortality. Glimpses of grace and inspiration. A touch that tells me to dare continue to live life on my own terms. Don't compromise on love, or faith, or hope.
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I move mindfully holding the candle of faith, inspired by hope, and attentive to love's prompting. I am mindful of the dark side, and I try my best to focus on the light. Joy unveils my fate, and destiny confronts each choice with encouraging flashes of insight.
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The message is oftentimes in the stray wind, the glorious dawn light, the mystical sunset interlude, or some other miraculous promptings from Mother Nature.
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I am not alone in my wandering. Spirit holds my breath to experience awesome wonders. Love ministers profound compassion, empathy and sympathy that connects me to the true Source of wisdom.
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Thus, I can know what's right and do the right thing regardless of the seemingly unredeemable consequences like error, mistake or even failure.
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Impermanence is the veil hiding certain immortality. Just like a play on the stage of life as actors and scenes come and go. Life, after all, is a series of primordial revelations. Life is a magnificent miracle unfolding to a mindful awareness. Now and here. Always.
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To want something, and yet desire something else is a constant struggle. What a predicament? The battle between needs and wants is about desire. Yet, desire like change, is a constantly moving object. The idea then is to follow the wisdom of a broken heart that knows the way, the truth and the life beyond earthly sorrow.
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What do I do now that can make my here and hereafter a lovely affair. Yes, no regrets, no guilt and no sad sorrow. Ah! That's the catch. Thoughts are things! So susceptible to changing fancy. Even foolish notions and allusions! I stake my claim on the middle path where the eternal road awaits the seeker with the guiding light. I embrace each with certain grace and wonder.
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