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Jaimeleigh Mead Poem
I'm not bent, I'm broken...
Not another word spoken...
No giving... No take...
Just one big ing mistake...
No forgive... No forget...
No time left to regret...
No future... No past...
Everything is far from my blast...
How will I ever understand my past...
No holding on... No letting go...
How will I ever know...
My life is a joke...
Without the coke...
People just love to poke...
No egg to my yoke...
No destiny... No fate...
But differently hell's gate...
My soul is in disrepair that's how I know...
I'm standing right there...
People determined to do me wrong & still expect me to remain strong....
No heaven... No earth...
Maybe one day I will make a choice that works for me...
Instead of sitting on my arse with a cold cup of tea...
Feeling sorry for poor little old me...
Sad arse choices are my only mistake...
My life is a mess, not just from heartache...
Going around in circles seems to be my thing...
Little hope... Little dope...
I wish I could fake it, but nope...
My life & me are the funniest thing you'll ever see...
This Is My Life Unfortunately...
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My life here & now is far from what or how I thought it was gonna be...
I thought we had cracked it you & me...
I thought it was our time to shine, to stand out To ride & die until the end...
Growing old together...
Our sadness & madness all in one place finally at peace, No disgrace on either face...
Happy finally looking at you...
That was us no matter what, that's what I believed...
What a fool I am indeed...
I cant believe I fooled myself like you fooled me...
How I've been deceived by you...
I've been trying while you've been lying...
You've too been untrue...
You've broke my heart once again...
I'm not in a trance, but how long we been dancing this disloyal dance...
I thought what happened before was only by chance...
Never to be repeated...
No this is much worse, the better I get, the worse you seem to treat me...
How can I now believe any words that you only ever repeat to me...?
Its like you think I forget, Or that I'm just plain old dumb silly...?
You say one thing, but your actions go another way...
Actions speak louder than words, that's the truth in what your actions show...
Hurting me more than I care to know...
And try my up most not to show...
But its killing me this you already know...
What can I do when I love you so...?
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I'm reversed, Not rehearsed...
I'm limb & able, Not alble & Cain...
I don't know nasty by name...
I'm not playing a game...
I'm grounded & wearing my crown...
Heavy are days when I frown...
I hear & listen...
I talk, I scream, I'm everything in between...
I'm happy, I'm sad, I'm a thousand voices when I'm mad...
I'm constantly battling between my day & night...
Whether I'm wrong or right...
No I don't feel sorry for me...
I don't want a pity party...
Some understanding would suit me...
Never mind I'm Bat= crazy all & not at all...
Yes 365 days of the year that's me...
That's life, I'm glad...
I'm blessed in ways I only understand...
You just look but never see the demons that I battle in my head...
I've said enough... Time for bed...
God bless us all... No ones to blame...
Always stand tall, no matter where you might fall...
Listening loud & clear we all at times disappear...
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When, Where & how does it all start...?
These feelings that tore my soul apart...
Wanting so much to be found, but lost somewhere under ground...
Everyone screaming I can hear the sound, judging & mocking & putting me down...
Its so dark where I stand, Never looking up, Always looking down...
No smile on my face, Just my miserable boat-race...
Where's the sun that needs to shine to bring me out from behind my rain cloud...
This is the way I never planned, One-day soon I will make a stand...
Where's that little girl that I knew so well...? She's lost deep inside her shell...
All she wants is her wishing well, to break away from all the hell...
To finally laugh & break that spell that people cast all so well...
Words un-spoken as years go by, but you can still see the hurt that's so painful in her eyes...
Here I stand asking please why, oh why, why take what's left inside...
Behind closed doors I've already died, with this darkness I have no pride...
Reaching for what I can't see, Longing to be the girl I use to be...
Happy & care-free...
But the nastiness of people in this world took my confidence, & made my life a living hell...
And to them, that was swell... I really want a wishing-well...
How can it feel so good to be so mean...?
How can making someone so blue be like a night out for you...?
When does a conscience come into play...
When they've killed there prey...?
Even then is it ok...?
Once so strong, Now so weak, Where's the comfort that we seek...
My life has become so bleak...
I wish in my wishing-well the courage & strength to hold on to what's left of me, even though I'm slowly dying...
I hope one-day all you bullies will see what you do to little ones like me...
I hope you know that I'm broken thanks to you...
I'm struggling to realise what's nice about me...
Forgiving isn't coming so easy...
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I just cant tell. Where's the girl I know so well?
She can't be gone,
She fought like hell to be where she is, to belong...
To be honest, To be strong...
She wasn't lying when she said denial was gone...
She stepped out in front of the door, & let everybody know she was whole once more...
It took her years to come to terms & face the truth...
It took over most of her youth...
She wasn't uncouth... She wasn't aloof...
But facing the truth was the fear she feared most...
So where has she gone... She finally knows she wasn't always in the wrong...
Everybody she knew helped along the way...
They wanted her to stay a stray, She should be proud for doing it her own way...
If she kept listening to what people say, She wouldn't be here today...
So where is she... where as she gone...?
She's not broken, just bent...
Lucky for her the time she spent thinking she was wired wrong...
On suicide watch they said she belonged...
She wanted to die, & believe me I done more than try...
But someone up there, far & beyond made it very clear that it wasn't her time...
She had to stay & lose those she holds dear...
No mistakes, no come backs never to whisper to let her know they would always be near...
Once again she can hear a voice from her past, the naughty voice just one shot, just one beer...
You deserve a drink after all it's been such a rough year...
She argues back, & knows she a risk she can't take...
but she doesn't know how much more she can take...
she's not a flake, she's not on her knees...
But where are you, I need you please...
I don't want to buckle, I don't want to slip, I don't wanna keep going on a guilt trip...
So where are you, come back & stand tall...
I can tell her now queen, throne, crown...
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I just cant tell. Where's the girl I know so well?
She can't be gone,
She fought like hell to be where she is, to belong...
To be honest, To be strong...
She wasn't lying when she said denial was gone...
She stepped out in front of the door, & let everybody know she was whole once more...
It took her years to come to terms & face the truth...
It took over most of her youth...
She wasn't uncouth... She wasn't aloof...
But facing the truth was the fear she feared most...
So where has she gone... She finally knows she wasn't always in the wrong...
Everybody she knew helped along the way...
They wanted her to stay a stray, She should be proud for doing it her own way...
If she kept listening to what people say, She wouldn't be here today...
So where is she... where as she gone...?
She's not broken, just bent...
Lucky for her the time she spent thinking she was wired wrong...
On suicide watch they said she belonged...
She wanted to die, & believe me I done more than try...
But someone up there, far & beyond made it very clear that it wasn't her time...
She had to stay & lose those she holds dear...
No mistakes, no come backs never to whisper to let her know they would always be near...
Once again she can hear a voice from her past, the naughty voice just one shot, just one beer...
You deserve a drink after all it's been such a rough year...
She argues back, & knows she a risk she can't take...
but she doesn't know how much more she can take...
she's not a flake, she's not on her knees...
But where are you, I need you please...
I don't want to buckle, I don't want to slip, I don't wanna keep going on a guilt trip...
So where are you, come back & stand tall...
I can tell her now queen, throne, crown...
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