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Marissa Faries is a neurodivergent millennial poetess. Written over a 1000 poems since she was a preteen. For the past several years her main poetic forms are crystalline, haiku/senryu, tanka, sijo, and couplets. Her neurodivergent conditions are autism, attention deficit disorder (ADD), and quiet borderline personality disorder. She is also a First Nations status Cree Canadian.

She writes poetry on many subjects to do with her personal life and inner world of thoughts and feelings. Themes included are romance, heartbreak, loneliness, depression, metaphorical or vague erotica, spirituality, and philosophical matters. She aspires to become a renowned published poetess, but finds the process to be difficult, as it is for all aspiring writers. Her personal interests are anime, astrology, video games, and art.

Marissa's spiritual belief system is all-inclusive of world religions as she found connections in all of them. She practices advanced astrology since her adolescence. Her spiritual practices are numerology, i-Ching, Tarot, oracle cards, lexigramming, meditation, binaural beats, dice fortune-telling and cartomancy. She also has the ability to dream of the future, sometimes. She believes in a Father God and a Mother Goddess. In her indigenous culture, her people believe in a Creator and practice ceremonies such as sweat lodges, night lodges, shaking tents, and praying with natural tobacco smoking.

Marissa has also had a lifelong medical history of epilepsy since infancy and her diabetes was diagnosed in her early 20's. She manages these conditions well with the proper medications. Despite all of the seizures she had through the course of her life, she still retains more than enough of her intelligence to continue writing and philosophizing. She has also lived 29 years of her life with her autism undiagnosed, having masked it as well as any autistic young women do themselves. Her goals are to lose enough weight to better manage her diabetes and to continue multivitamin and electrolyte supplementations for optimal health in the long-term.

So far in her life, she lost her paternal grandfather to pancreatic cancer in September 2021 and lost her 17-year old cousin to the drug fentanyl in May 2022. These two deaths have been a source of immense grief, but also brought on enough inspiration to write poetry to process her feelings. One of her greatest wishes is for her remaining three grandparents and her own parents to stay alive for many years to come. She also prays for the protection of her aunts, uncles, many cousins, her two siblings, and friends.

So far she is living a good life, regardless of her mental health and what may never come to be. Marissa is grateful to have the audience of PoetrySoup, as well as grateful for all of her personal connections that persist in her life.


En-Light-enment

Blog Posted:1/5/2025 5:42:00 AM

In the spiritual world, our souls and spiritual bodies are made of light and sound. The Universe and perhaps a multiverse are also actually made up of light and sound. Atoms are hollow, and therefore that suggests there is really nothing there. Which may prove we do live in a simulation. But the simulation is real, because the truth is atoms are made up of light and sound. The greater truth is all living conscient beings are projecting light and sound made concrete to form reality together. We all collectively agree on surroundings we see and touch.

 

Negative psycho-emotional disturbances and physical crimes we commit, are not God's fault, but only the fault of humans and any other living being capable of such things. It is possible for Earthlings to achieve world peace, but we are mislead by organizations who are greedy and want to invade other countries for resources. In the end much of what people do is to protect their countries, and yet when they accomplish that, some still abuse their citizens. Most of the evil and unfairness in the world is not caused by supernatural beings, but instead caused by very human people who want to unnecessarily control what others do. It is very human, according to the duality of human nature, to want to commit evil acts or impose unnecessarily strict laws. We are all capable of it, but some of our souls are spiritually advanced enough to know it is better to do right by others and do good for those in need or worthy of it. The oldest goal of every religion, philosophical school, and forms of practicing spirituality, is to enlighten people and improve the collective lives of human beings.

 

Buddhism teaches that we must let go of desire(s) in order to end suffering, attain enlightenment, and end the reincarnation cycle. But it is not as clear cut as that. We can still have desires in our living days, but the actual point is to know when to let go and just be. We suffer not because of desire itself, but because of our failing pursuits or lack of correct actions to fulfill the desires. We suffer because we want what we can't have, and it is only when we learn to let go that we feel better about these failings. We also suffer because we have amnesia of how we are actually connected to everything and everyone, and so we already have what we want or need most: family, shelter, food, friends, and so on.

 

The bigger point to enlightenment, and reaching Nirvana (a state of the mind in living days and oneness with everything post-death), is to just let go, and just be. Just live in the present, appreciate what you do have going on for yourself. Because you already are a part of everything, so why should you want anything? This also ties in with the Biblical saying, "I shall not want." Meaning we ourselves are all gods and goddesses, and being created in the image of God means just that. Our souls collectively project reality and hence we all have precisely what we need and want to grow spiritually. A saying I have, "It is not whether you deserve it or not, it's about what you can learn from it."

 

So what does it mean to become enlightened near, upon, and post-death? Well, it is a self-explanatory word. You must lighten your load in order to move onto the spiritual side of reality. You must let go of what else you could do, let go of what could have been, and so on. You cannot take your negative thoughts, feelings, and experiences with you to the afterlife, as they will only weigh your soul down. You will also gain an omniscient understanding of why bad things happened and why you lived your life the way you did.

 

According to the Ancient Egyptians, your soul must weigh as light as a feather. What is lighter than a feather but light iself? Our souls are made up of light and sound, and they are of higher frequencies than our eyes can see and our ears can hear. To enlighten yourself is to set your soul free to be as light as a feather, and what is lighter than light itself? Enlightenment means realizing and accepting everything is connected and everything is in perpetual motion, going as it is meant to be, for better or worse. It is only a matter of what our souls learn from all experiences: the good, the bad, and the ugly.



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Date: 1/5/2025 11:49:00 AM
Marissa, great blog, thanks for all the info ~
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Date: 1/5/2025 8:59:00 AM
An excellent essay, every word. Thank you!
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Date: 1/5/2025 7:10:00 AM
Interesting write dear poet. Amazing as well as perplexing thoughts. Best Wishes, happy writing dear poet.
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Date: 1/5/2025 6:48:00 AM
Thanks for sharing these words of wisdom, Marissa. Many theories abound. Central to the idea of duality being a simulation, a dream if you will, from the non-dual or Advaita perspective is that all is one. Reworded, God alone is, the all there is. In deep meditation we may see our true Self as living light in singularity. Too long a subject to elaborate upon here.
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Date: 1/5/2025 6:26:00 AM
Hi Marissa, Thank you for posting this. So much to think about here. I've read many things on this complicated topic over the years. You have somehow managed to convey it with great wisdom and clarity. Thanks again God bless Anthony
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