Forgiveness
It’s been three years since I left you
In a corner bar
You screamed for me to come back but I refused
“Never” I said, “NEVER”!
And here I stand again lost in your pain and anguish
It seemed so simple so easy.
Just one more time for old times sake.
You couldn’t hurt me. I knew you and your tricks.
But you are old and wise and I am a fool. And at your feet you pulled a razor blade from your boot and a thousand doves fell to the ground.
The heavens broke and it rained broken umbrellas.
And the tears ran down a tattooed tear
Crying for forgiveness
I cornered you. You had a bottle in your hand and you laughed because it was not empty and you knew I would have to drink until it was…but I stopped. And you vanished again.
I have turned the corner again. For everything in this world is not cyclical. Sometimes the world is linear and if you have the courage you can walk away.
I will not look back this time. For you have turned to stone and I am the one with the strength. I forgive myself. I forgive my stupidity. But mostly I forgive those who I have hurt and hold animosity against me. To them I must make amends. This is the hardest part of being me. Holding it all inside.
Copyright © Stephen Kilmer | Year Posted 2020
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