The Future
The Future
To whoever it indeed concerns,
Congratulations on finding this letter, but unfortunately, you are too late
I chose to venture on a journey to find something
It may seem a rash decision to you mortals, but expect me
But I’m hoping that this trip will aid me
In what way, I don’t know yet, and that makes it fun
You see, my future is unknown, and that is a bit frightening
I never really cared a bit for my future for silly reasons
The reason was that I didn’t believe I had one or deserved one
Ridiculous, I know, but that is what I truly believed in before
But that all changed because of my lovely friends
Some of them got married and found happiness
Some of them achieved their goals and found enjoyment
Meanwhile, I’m trapped in this dead-end job
There is a tremendous amount of stress that constantly stacks daily
Though, to be fair, it’s primarily self-inflicted stress for no reason
Even if that is true, I’m still stressing myself out daily
I wake up feeling dread and worry constantly
Some days are much worse compared to other times
These days, I cry myself to sleep with thoughts of hurting myself
Thankfully, these days aren’t plentiful; otherwise, I would have run out of tears
One night was the absolute worst compared to everything
I blocked out the memory as best I could to this day
But a thought pops up in my head as I slumber
Why am I allowing myself to go through this torture?
It made me think about my potential future
I don’t know what I wish to do with my life
And that was stupid of me
I know that my friends will support me whatever I do
So I’m not alone as I thought I was
But a small part of me wanted to do this alone
Away from everyone who cared for me
Thus, that is why this trip manifest
Maybe I will find whatever I’m looking for
Wish me luck
Copyright © Christopher Tran | Year Posted 2024
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