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Crystal Kuhl Poem
Do they notice she's even broken
No, she wears her pain as a token!
Places a smile in every direction,
Even if she doesn't get the same reaction.
Looking at her you couldn't tell,
She went through many events people only imagine in hell.
Fear is only a word to her; she is numb to that feeling deep within,
Not a victim a survivor to multiple battles; her soul will always win.
Suicide was in her mind,
Until she thought of all she would leave behind....
Bringing pain onto others hurts her even more,
She chose to keep her feelings silent and close the door.
To this day she will smile and even laugh like everything's okay,
For she knows the struggle is hard as she embraces knowing tomorrow is a new day!
She's wise to know you cannot change what has happened; it's now apart of her past,
You wouldn't know by looking at her today that she grew up too fast.
She taught me how to be strong,
That I had it in me all along!
I look to her and this is what I say,
She was me still is today.
I'm sorry I let my emotions get in the way,
I begged God to help me see me through when I'd pray!
I did and I have changed my view,
I look at everyday each day anew!!
I'm proud of the woman I've grown to be,
I may make mistakes; I learn though you see!!
I am not afraid; fear does not scare me!!
I stand tall with pride like a beautiful tree!!
You would have never guessed I suffer with anxiety and depression,
I don't share my problems because I've already learned that lesson..
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Distance became a trait,
played with fire like playing with fate!
my own desires took an ultimate leap,
by forgetting myself in the sorrows I reap!
joined by one as blessed with many,
love inside is not with just any!
Fear is real as it takes its place,
when love is spoken right to my face!
feeling so low hands shaking in fear,
tears falling as hearts pounding I can't see anything clear!
falling down a dark hole,
cannot feel my body im losing control!
what is this that is happening to me,
I'm giving too much power to negativity!
afraid so I'm lashing,
traffic lights show im crashing!!
Lord save me from this disaster,
I'm praying for help my holy master!
where did I go wrong,
I'm still singing the same sad song!
Asking for help when you're guiding my path,
Take control it's common math!!
Life is what you create in the end,
every step you take every choice every friend!
if I keep asking I obviously can't see,
the blissful joy placed infront of me!
yes pain and sorrow run deep in my soul,
certain circumstances yes are hard to let go!
as I am able to see a new day,
is my gift I'm grateful for in every way!
Conjunction with an emotional drain,
I am who I am for taking the pain.
Life changes as years pass us by,
i used to question it but now i dont ask why!!
i already know.....
life is life enjoy the show.....
if you're wise you'll take control....
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Crystal Kuhl Poem
Sometime's life knock's you down,
You feel weak and faced to frown.
However life is life, you have to live it and deal,
Many thing's cross that tinker with how you feel.
In the end you have you,
To either stand up or continue to stew.
Raise you're head and live today,
Or cry today like you did yesterday.
The choice is your own no mater what's past,
Big or small time moves too fast.
You can't focus too much on what could have been,
If you do that then you loose it all in the end.
Moment's and memories you spent dwelling,
Life's reaction to mental swelling.
Become optimistic with a brighter view,
Think of all the thing's that enlighten you.
Imagine what you could have and strife for your goal,
There is no point in giving up ; just take the shot's and roll.
You will come across many thing's that you won't like,
As that's said, It's up too you to deal or hike.
Crying isn't an option simply because it does nothing good,
Yelling for you're point is beyond pointless : It's misunderstood.
Become the bigger person if the problem is with another,
Don't be stubborn over love there will always be ..."the other"..
Life has its quirks that will eventually bring you down,
It's really up to you to break free or take deep drown.
-ck
Copyright © Crystal Kuhl | Year Posted 2020
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I am not mad,
I am not sad.
I do not care,
You're choice was there.
My boyfriend cheated,
It was you that I needed.
You cried you're problems instead,
When all I needed was a leveled head.
Pushed me aside,
And those feelings I just let ride..
Continued daily tasks,
My deeper feelings I had to mask.
Time's went by,
No word no hi.
And when you did,
It was an ultimate goodbye.
I don't need you're nonsense,
and I don't need you're friendship.
If you choose to treat me like a mat,
It won't be hard for me to turn my back.
The door is as clear as air,
Here let me hold it open for you to walk there!
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Hello, my name was given to me by my parent's at birth,
I did not ask to be here; see im here on this earth!
Just like you and you know this that I write, it is true,
This poem is for every single one of you!
Hello from me too you "I am here",
Just like everyone else I laugh "oh" and I do tear!
When I get cut the color of my blood is red,
When I get tired I do need to go to bed!
My stomach grumbles its time for me too eat,
And YES I do like you; I wear shoes on my feet.
If you see me I guarantee you I'll wave and be kind,
In hope's you have the same intentions in mind!
Hey, I get insecure and scared at times,
Sometimes I can be louder than windchimes.
Like you I have qualities that make me unique in my very own special way; I am me.
Understand this doesn't make me better than anybody; I am spirituality free
Positivity isn't just a word or a phrase,
It's a lifestyle that brings blessing; in itself is praised.
Small or big; true good things do follow genuinely spirited souls,
Negativity brings chaotic tolls, ignorant trolls, feelings of helpless possibly out of control.
The life you live sure you didn't ask to be here,
You didn't choose it so let me make this crystal clear.
Racism and sexism amungst many judgemental factors are obscure!
I was born in 89..
Yes I have my own story which is pretty fine cause it can cross some strangs lines.
Like you, you have a story am I right or wrong?
GOOD or BAD we all have our own song!
I don't believe that nationality should segregate different races,
We are all humans; hold my hand and see all these faces..
Each face with a story, family and hope,
Each face with pain and trying to cope!!
We hide inside wearing masks to protect a virus that kills,
SOME humans losing jobs; praying on for their next meals.
Let's reunite by making America as proud being United as One,
Hold my hand and pass this poem along!
Remember who you are; deep inside you truly know,
Maybe we didn't ask to be here but we all have a soul...
What does yours tell you?
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Misfortune comes at the worst expense,
Anxiety following stress taking over in depth intense.
Air heavily thinning following extreme heat,
Overwhelming sweat covering my hands and feet.
Fire fueling the pain in my chest,
Arms to heavy with legs fighting to rest...
...Tragedy
Suddenly consuming me......
The blink of a lightening blast,
As serious internally as an accidental crash.
The Rush is flowing through my veins,
Yet, this is what they call growing pains?
What? Living to learn a conspiracy lie,
Helplessly watching the one's we loved die?
...Tragedy
Releases the darkest question's concerning why,
Reveals even the deepest tears our eyes will cry..
...Tragedy
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Like an painting thats an artistically mounted abstract
Many different interpretationsof this in fact!
One may see and feel it in a different faze,
That's how I feel by falling into this maze.
Downgraded, disrespected by rumors and lies,
I cared too much that I even allowed this betrayl to ever bring tears too my eyes.
Am I offened? Yes! Entirely! Uncomfortable and deeply feeling the inner hurt,
Because I was nice ; Jealousy tried to set fire that backfired and burnt.
Now I second guess my every word that I say,
Even though I'm told to continue who I am everyday.
I am to be the bigger person even though I am aware of distrust,
Maturity is more than a number integrity is a must!
Spreading rumors telling pointless lies,
Vindictive behavior portraying a disguise!
Nobody now at this point is even surprised,
Caught red handed in a list full of lies..
Exaggeration to the maximum extention,
Starts to make more than one person question?
Is anything that you've ever said really even true?
How can anyone trust be given too you!
Being that your word is your bond that's clearly been transparently viewed,
The reason I hold grudges is due to people with too many faces like you!
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Claiming to be trustworthy doesn't make it true,
Proving who you are is entirely up too you!
Weakness is misery which loves to spread it's ways,
Strength is pushing past all and all through the negative days.
We all have a story; some harder to hear,
Trust isn't given and grudges are steering clear.
Deception and manipulation is a terrible trate,
Karma doesn't forget and neither does fate.
If you feel it's best to intentionally cause pain,
Continue how you live you are boarding your own plane.
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Weakness is not being hurt or sad,
Weakness is giving up.
It's not the fact that you get mad,
It's the fact your hand's are up..
Refusing to move forward in time,
Playing the victim as a roll.
I understand your not feeling too fine,
Instead of rising you fold..
Arms crossed behind a barrier wall,
No one can reach you inside.
Shrunken down your no longer tall,
you took the hit as well as your pride.
Open your eyes to see reality,
Your son should be your life.
Instead your hung up on somebody,
When he need's your strength to strife.
She is only the mother to your son,
Not the water or air you need.
He need's a daddy he's your son,
She isn't the reason you will succeed..
A good father will not let anything come in his way,
A good father is a man who will fight to see his child everyday.
A good father will accept what he cannot change,
As well as change what he can..
You two are no longer a team,
She is pregnant by another man.
Time to put aside all that is mean,
And rise above and be a father..
He needs you now more than ever...
Let it go and breathe....
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Unknowingly
She laughs when she wants to cry
When she cry's the tears shed without try..
Her pain she felt flows like the sea,
She is the girl in the mirror looking back at me.
I told her it's going to be okay,
Sure yesterday was bad let's just embrace today!
She looks at me with those piercing eyes,
Asks me the one question I truly dispise.....
How?
Now!!
I yell at the girl in the mirror for years,
I am staring at this girl in tears..
Begging and pleading please stop crying,
In this life time she's seen so many dying..
Hope seemed lost as she remained tamed,
Until I finally unknowingly remembered her name..
She is me and I am looking at my own reflection,
Broken glass now switch this direction...
Pushed aside and left behind the person that I was to be,
Unknowingly I now remember ... Yes I remember me!!
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