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I remember it all clearly now,
The words he spoke to me
They all came from this bird I saw,
Sitting high up in that tree
At first I thought I'd lost my mind,
Just listening to this bird
But not too long into his tale,
I hung on every word
The tale that he relayed to me,
Was filled with drugs and crime
And ended with a friend of his,
In prison doing time
It started in a park he said,
Just a couple of years ago
He never named the park he meant,
But said that I would know
His friend was walking down this path,
When he came across this man
Who sat beneath a big shade tree,
With a cigarette in his hand
He asked the man for a cigarette,
Then he smoked it then and there
He said the only reason that he did,
Cause a pigeon double dared
From that day on he couldn't stop,
He was smoking more and more
And to get his fix for nicotine,
He started robbing liquor stores
Then, when cigarettes no longer worked,
He switched to dip and chew
And swore he'd hit the hard stuff,
Before he was ever through
The cops already knew his name,
By the time he was finally stopped
And they sentenced him to life without,
Inside a local mall's pet shop
I'm sure this tale seems out of place,
Or to you may seem a joke
But its as real as anything could be,
To the friend of which he spoke
That friend has thrown away his life,
I'm sure he must regret
All because he took a dare,
To smoke one cigarette
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I took a trip last night into my dreams
To a place that I'm sure no one has seen
The sky was black as the darkest of nights
But everything else was a spectrum of light
With no one around but still voices I hear
When all of a sudden a doorway appeared
A sign on the door said welcome, come in
And that's where the story of this journey begins
When I turned the knob and pushed open the door
I almost stepped in when I noticed no floor
I heard a voice tell me "do not be afraid"
"This is a journey of the choices you made"
"You see life is a journey that everyone takes
And your judged in this world by the choices you make
You had the choice to do wrong or right
You chose to do wrong and stand there and fight"
"So now close your eyes and enter this room
And witness events to your upcoming doom"
I shut my eyes and I walked through the air
When I looked to the left a doorway was there
I opened the door and started to scream
I wanted to wake from this terrible dream
What I saw in that room will haunt me for life
It was the bodies of my children and my beautiful wife
I screamed at the voice "why did you bring me here"
He said," it is time to face my worse fear
Now go to your family and look in their eyes"
But I couldn't move and I started to cry
Finally I walked over till I came to my son
I couldn't do anything the damage was done
I looked in his eyes and saw what he'd seen
The moment he died he was crying for me
Each child that I went to their eyes were the same
Before each one of them died they cried out my name
I couldn't take anymore so I asked," could we go"
He said," not quite yet there's something else I must show"
"You see, you left them behind when you went to jail"
"But I hadn't a choice" I stared to yell
"Then who made the choice when you committed that crime"
"So then why punish them if the fault was all mine"
"They died whenever you spun out of control
Cause you were responsible when you took on the role
Of father and husband to the family you see
That is laying before you and will no longer be"
"So what will it be the choice is on you
But remember your choices could make this come true
You have the choice to forget what you've seen
And continue your life the way that you please"
"Just remember the choices you make for yourself
Not only affect you they affect someone else
So now I shall leave you to let you decide
And I hope that all this has made you realize"
"It's not only on you when you choose the wrong road
Your family and friends have to help carry the load"
When I finally woke up I just started to grin
I was given the chance to change this journey's end
This was an actual dream that I had while sitting in jail, so I wrote it down. It isn't a very good one as far as rhythm, but I like the story and the message.
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With peace a distant memory
and love so far removed
I fear I must retreat inside
the sanctum of my tomb
As tortured voices call to me
I ponder at the door
Shall I release my hold on life
of this I must implore
Since forgiveness seems so silent
and my sorrows seem so loud
My thoughts escape detection as
I face the maddening crowd
But hope remains my company
as darkness turns from light
All my dreams have disappeared
like birds thats taken flight
I marvel at the mysteries
which shadows ushered in
The halls of pain within my Hell
have started once again
I scream surrender in my soul
with nothing left to prove
With peace a distant memory
and love so far removed
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The end has come for me today
so I must say good-bye
It may be hard to understand
but I trust that you will try
My heart's so filled with emptiness
controlled by misery
I've finally seen that what I am
was never meant to be
The tears I've cried so recently
are for pain nobody knows
I just can't take it anymore
it's time for me to go
Is life suppose to be this way
with thoughts of suicide
Or has my life become a loss
with no one to confide
Does anybody understand
the pain that fills my heart
Or understand that all of this
is tearing me apart
Concealment isn't optional
for no one seems to care
I hide within my shattered thoughts
While drowning in despair
My heart has grown so heavy
and still I don't know why
But the end has come for me today
so I will say good-bye
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I was sitting in the park one day
in the shade underneath a tree
When I saw this little squirrel come up
and sit right next to me
I watched it sit there for a while
then I offered it some bread
He looked around then looked at me
'no thanks' I thought he said
I knew I must be hearing things
so I said 'say that again'
He said 'I said no thank you'
and I about jumped out my skin
Squirrels aren't suppose to talk
or at least that's what I thought
But he asked me for a cigarette
and said that'd mean alot
I thought, this can't be happening
it had to be some kind of joke
But I was sure I heard this little squirrel
just ask me for a smoke
So I gave the squirrel a cigarette
then sat and watched in awe
When he was done he told me thanks
and stuck out his little paw
I shook his paw and left the park
I'm not sure if he's still there
Everyone says I imagined it
but he asked me for a square
My doctor thinks I dreamed it all
but I swear that it's the truth
If you don't believe my word
ask the pigeon he smoked one too
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I can't escape the loneliness
which haunts me deep inside
There's no one I can turn to
and nowhere left to hide
For years I have been tortured by
these thoughts within my head
My sanity slips far away
with every tear I shed
Control beyond my hopefulness
and peace so far from sight
I hate the waking thoughts I have
and dread the dreams at night
Can Death secure my restlessness
the grave relieve my fears
Or must I continue hating life
through my remaining years
Surely Death's a blessed end
from all the pain I feel
The misery within my heart
can never be concealed
I've reached the point of no return
too great is all my pain
I pray for Death to claim my soul
before I go insane
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When darkness falls across the sky
my fears hope for tomorrow
With dreams that soar like eagles fly
with peace and painful sorrow
As love remembers better times
and memories filter through
All these thoughts that fill my mind
I wonder which are true
I toss and turn as nightmares rage
with terror in the night
With horror etched upon my face
I fear no end in sight
Through space and time I search for you
my shelter in the storm
You gave me strength like no one could
I couldn't ask for more
But I fight these battles all alone
with no one by my side
It seems the truths that must be told
are torture to my mind
I'm bound for Hell with Heaven high
and time that can't be borrowed
As darkness falls across the sky
my fears are for tomorrow
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I fight hate with every breath
concealed in self-control
Beneath the surface evil haunts
the peace within my soul
These tortured thoughts which fill my head
are tearing me apart
From deep within I feel the pain
of questions in my heart
My peace of mind is faltering
but how long shall it last
Before I relive all the pains
within my tortured past
The battle rages inwardly
to mask constant deceit
Transformations of the soul
are all but incomplete
I'm stuck between the man I am
and who I use to be
My attempts at peace are useless
since I'm bound by misery
All the terrors and the pain
have finally taken hold
As I fight hate with every breath
concealed in self-control
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Love is giving all you have
to make their life complete
And never making promises
you don't intend to keep
Love is sometimes letting go
in hopes that they'll return
And if it wasn't meant to be
hold on to what you've learned
Love is being by their side
no matter what the cost
For without them your hopes
and dreams are all but lost
Love is sometimes all we have
in a world so dark and cold
And need a place to warm ourselves
with someone there to hold
Love is having everything
when you hold them in your arms
And taking every step you can
to keep them safe from harm
Love is what I learn from you
each and every day
All my love I give to you
and that will never fade
Love is what I needed most
to heal a shattered life
And all my dreams I found in you
when you became my wife
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In the tapestry that we call life
we're but a single thread
So when one dies we cannot let
a single tear be shed
For all things have a certain flow
whether slow or fast
We're intertwined with future times
and time already past
Every person on this earth
impacts each others lives
For you to truly comprehend
look through anothers eyes
Then maybe you will finally see
we're all in this together
If we try to help each other out
this world just might get better
Instead of violence show some love
and see what that might bring
For peace and joy go hand in hand
overcoming anything
If we teach the children of this world
that hate is not the way
Then we must start that lesson now
so peace can reign someday
For a world where all can finish first
and no one left behind
Since the true at heart can only be
the future of mankind
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