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Karen Matthews Poem
Heart Cold, Soul Sold Into Slavery OF THE Mind, Cant Find Room TO Breathe WHY IS This Happening TO ME? Trapped IN Darkness NO Harness TO Pull ME From THE Abyss, I Miss OLD ME WHO Fought Diligently TO Accept Life'S Flaws BUT Life AIN'T Allowing MY Heart TO Thaw.
I SAW SO Much Sickness! SO Much! YET I Remain Intact Physically BUT Mentally I AM Destroyed, Confused, Spiritually Infused With Hope BUT MY Flesh IS Weak. I EAT BUT CAN'T GET NO Fulfillment, NO Nourishment IS MY Whole Life A LIE? IS This Pain Showing ME A Sign? IN DUE Time Will I Arise?
Sunshine IS Nonexistent IN MY World, Lonely Girl, Feels AS Though I GOT NO Home, A Motherless I WAS THE Black Sheep THE Whole Time. Feeling AS Though ALL IS Lost HOW Great THE Cost I Paid Just TO Feel Worthy OF Your Love. When IT ALL Came Down TO IT THE Only THE Love I GOT WAS From Above. SO BE IT, I DON'T Need IT Further Heartache AND Pain, THE Damage YOU Caused BUT YOU SAY IM THE ONE TO Blame?!
I Refrain TO Feel Shame Because I Know THE Truth, Loved YOU Even When IT WAS Hard TO. AND I Trusted YOU BUT YOU Threw IT IN MY Face. I'VE Tried TO Erase THE Tears YOU Made ME CRY. ALL I Asked FOR WAS YOU TO Apologize BUT YOU Didn'T Even TRY. Left ME TO Pick UP THE Pieces ON MY OWN Maybe I Have Reaped What I'VE Sown.
AT THE END OF THE DAY I Needed YOU. BUT YOU Falsified Facts TO Hide THE Deviant Things That YOU DO. When I GOT ON MY Knees AND Begged YOU FOR THE Truth YOU HIT Curve Balls MY WAY Like Your Name IS Babe Ruth. YOU ARE Ruthless Betrayed ME Like Judas. WAS IT Worth THE Destruction OF US? That YOU Broke MY Trust!
Psychologically I;M Drained BUT I Thank YOU FOR Helping ME Earn MY Name. Pained Poet Seared IN Your Brain. Things CAN'T AND MAY Never BE THE Same. Game Changer, RE-Arranger I Will LET GO OF MY Anger. FOR ITS A Vicious Cycle IF I Choose TO Despise YOU MY Soul MAY AS Well BE Ruined. SO I Choose TO Forgive YOU TO Heal MY Spirit AND BE Born Anew.
Copyright © Karen Matthews | Year Posted 2015
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Karen Matthews Poem
As I wipe my teary eyes from
Letting you between my thighs
No prize just a feeling for the moment. A squirrel tryna get a nut, but I am dumb cuz I knew what was up.
Tried to believe a false sense of the start of something new but who knew you would do me the way you do. Now I'm trapped up inside of myself secret burning like the brightest flame. It ain't no game, I still gave you me. My core of warmth wasn't so you could get a feel and then act like
you can't deal leaving me to feel it was all a lie. Guess I'm blind cause I tried to make you remember the feeling you gave me and the feeling I returned but instead you dismissed me and ignored me. Call me dummy. In my head I thought it was a connection but to you just an injection believed it was affection but no it was inception. just a dream that never really existed a painting not finished... Tarnish left on me because I took you whole at the cost of my soul. I do need therapy because
somewhere in me secretly I wanted u to need me...to crave me...want me ... Feel me... Taste me... But instead I need you...crave you...want you...feel you...taste you but what's the point if it's not mutual... This unrequited feeling of dealing with you in such intimacy. I guess my mind does play tricks on me because evidently we never had ecstacy just a fantasy. now its over just a distant painful memory to know it never happened you and me was never
Copyright © Karen Matthews | Year Posted 2015
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