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Mistylove Lopez Poem
What happens when your only way out is so final, yet so beautiful?
When the only one you've got is your captor, your abuser?
When your chance at a legitimate escape is too far away, when you’ve just got to get away now?
I’ll tell you what happens:
You get a little crazy, a little careless.
You can’t remember all of the people who care for you, the ones who would miss you.
You get selfish.
You can’t see what causes it, so you can’t fix it… this dysfunction.
You know you can’t just change it, because you’re not the only one involved.
So… You run.
The first chance you get, you run.
But there’s no where to go.
You know they’ll come.
You know they’ll find you.
So, you run.
Just until you find a beautiful space.
It’s so beautiful, it might already be heaven.
You’ll find out soon.
It’s a beautiful cliff.
Maybe they’ll think you fell.
It doesn't matter.
Don’t leave a note;
Let them think what they will.
Jump.
Now’s your chance.
Hear them coming?
They’re closing in.
Quick!
Before they catch you.
This is your last chance to escape.
Jump.
It won’t hurt once you've hit the bottom.
It can’t be any worse than everyday.
Do it now,
Before there’s anymore pain.
Don’t start thinking.
They’ll get over you.
Move on without you.
Jump.
Before it’s too late again.
Just jump.
Nothing will ever hurt again.
Quick!
Do it quick!
Jump.
… Just Jump.
*This is the end of a tortured life.*
Turns out…
The bad guys win.
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Copyright © Mistylove Lopez | Year Posted 2013
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Mistylove Lopez Poem
This is the story of a beautiful horse named Glory
Freckled and spotted
She stood but a twig
Lost in a forest
Of abandonment
Tires and barbwire
Surround her by day
And at night she suffers
The coyotes cries, not far away
Left with no food
Or water to drink
She stands by a tree
And hopes for relief
Halter grown in
And hooves overgrown
Not a grain in that belly
And left all alone
Withering quick
She stands by her tree
And hopes a kind soul
Will help her to see
There is life still
No matter how grim
Things seem from beneath
This horrid, old tree
This halfhearted twig
Awaits her relief
As the days pass her by
And she writhes with grief
Her name is Glory
All freckled with spots
Like a giant Dalmatian
Trapped in this spot
At the end of her lead
She was finally freed
Not a day too soon
She'll now find relief
Halfhearted no longer
And happy at last
Whom once was a twig
Knows Glory at last
Halfhearted no longer
And free from that mess
Glory has found relief
At Horse Creek Ranch*
*Horse Creek Ranch is, to the best of my knowledge, a fictional name.
Copyright © Mistylove Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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Mistylove Lopez Poem
Look At That Face!
Before I was yours there was a time when I could not go outside. I would stay all day in this concrete cage and the days would pass me by. Many people scuffled through this dark and dusty place; each time they looked but passed me by for a softer, younger face.
For three long years, here I'd wait in this cold decrepit place. Just waiting for the day you'd come and say 'Look at that face!' Through all this time I wagged my tail, hoping and believing that someday you would come and see far past my size and wrinkles.
At my first home... There, they were nice, until two weeks past and twice my size. They didn't foresee my growth or my playful puppy ways. They didn't account for training, or the messes I might make so here I was left to stay in this cold concrete cage. Until the day you came and said 'Look at that face!'
Now here I am today, in this sunny grassy place. I fetch and I obey at the moment that you say. Soon we go inside to the comfy furnished space where you lay down on your bed and I stretch out by your side. You stroke my head, I wag my tail and here we say no more, for here I am today; happy, healthy, and forever home.
A Note From The Author:::...
I have 4 rescue dogs, one with epilepsy and 2 cats I rescued as strays. I feel the ones who've had a difficult life appreciate and treasure our love more. You'll have a lot to learn about a rescue fur-baby but it's well worth it for the love they give back to you.
Copyright © Mistylove Lopez | Year Posted 2011
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Mistylove Lopez Poem
Have you forgotten all you taught me,
Dear Frankenstein?
Let me remind you
Of of how we came to be this way:::...
Dear Frankenstein
I'd just like to say
Why I finally went away
From early on
You taught me well
About omissions and lies
And doing them well
An omission is not a lie
I learned early on
But you changed your tune
When you thought I had gone
You failed to instill
The difference between
You and me
And the ants on my feet
So an omission I made
To you one day
Because also you taught me
Withholding information is key
You called it a lie
And stood silent for days
Well guess what?
You pushed me away
You changed your mind
When you called it a lie
And a whole lot changed
On that night
My hero, my saint
Held up so high
Dear Frankenstein
You fell from the sky
Hit the ground
Landed on your face
Embrace the change
Nothing can be the same
Now you roam
Amongst the rest
With an H on your face
For Hypocrite
And a Hypocrite
You will remain
Because monsters do
As they are trained
In no time since then
You said I'd lied
Because I trusted you
To see inside
Silly me
I made a mistake
When I trusted you
Again today
Never again
Will it happen to me
Trusting you
Is what dug your grave
Every monster has a Frankenstein
We are born as clay
And shaped by your ways
You wanted a liar
An omit-er
A tool
You got what you asked for
Ten fold, you fool
Betrayed by your monster
You sent it away
And expected it would learn
But return some day
Stupid you
You hypocrite
You fool!
You started digging that grave
The day you taught your monster
To think for itself
It's own ideas to make
And in translation
You fell through the cracks
No decision was made
About who to respect
Dear Frankenstein
I must say
I'm not sorry
You pushed me away
Learned a lot this time
About trust and disdain
Surely you know
That you dug your own grave
It was not me
Who chose this fate
Dear Frankenstein
...
You made me this way.
Copyright © Mistylove Lopez | Year Posted 2011
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Mistylove Lopez Poem
Here we go
again
No room left to
pretend
The word 'love'
Is just junk
It's meant to
cover up
The scars and
the bruises
Of fights day
and night
The mental
abuses
It just isn't right
Surviving
together
In this torture
room
This shattered
home
Can provide no
room
To breath but
to see
Hearts of soot
and ash
When the cold
took over
It broke them
in half
Strangle me
Stab me
Swallow me
whole
Spit me out
String me up
Drop me hard
down a hole
Let me crash
and burn
But never learn
The sins of this
home
The lie that is
'love'
It never ends
Like a carnival
ride
Round and
round
And up and
down
Never let me
drown
Just choke for a
little while
Then pull me
up
And whip my
back
Then start again
On the next go
round
I can't get off
This merry-go-
round
In
Frankenstein's
carnival
No mercy can
be found
Like jungle cats
We fight in
silence
Tearing to
shreds
'Til it rains
down red
The acid in the
blood
Which pours
like a flood
Burns my
wounded back
Where you
whipped me
As revenge for
my subtle attack
I knew by now
You could be
so cruel
But to turn
your back
Your subtle
attack
For a simple
question
I need not
have asked
The silence
ringing in my
ears
It's scathing
tone buries me
whole
In soot and ash
And prolongs
your attack
All the shards
From the
windows and
walls
Of our broken
home
They envelope
my soul
And take me
into the fold
Bury me in this
mold
As the one who
couldn't go
Freeze me in
time
As the failure
Who couldn't
get out
To save her
own soul
But chained to
a wall
She fell
through the
floor
She rotted away
...
Had she ever
been there at
all?
The victim of a
broken home
The subtle
abuses
They ate
through her
soul
Not breathing
but seeing
The monster's
true form
Left on her own
In this
permanently
broken home
Can't live with
Can't afford to
live without
Then die
together
In the torture
room
Of this
irrevocably
broken home
…...
Round and
round
On the merry-
go-round
Frankenstein's
carnival
Has taken you
down
Copyright © Mistylove Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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Mistylove Lopez Poem
Tear into my skin
And let my life drip out
This is my omission
My sin
Self inflicted is how it goes
Keep me guessing
On my toes
Never thought the day would come
When I would have to kiss that gun
All my life I've thought about
How it might have been
To tell the truth
Without the blur
Of lies or stories within
Not a lie
But an omission
A crucial fact left out
To change the story
In my favor
And let the crowd go wild
Not sinister
Not selfish
No harm here
It was a cat
A playful cat
Who put the scratches there
Not scratches but cuts
Deeply imbedded
Into the liar's soul
How long will they believe
That it was this little cat
Who made me bleed
Though I did not scream
I need the blood to drop
Just a little at a time
Maybe an ounce or two
Not very much
But just enough
To ease my aching soul
Yet still I blame that little cat
For tearing up my skin
Well thanks cat
You did me well
With an alibi included
I spill my blood
And mine alone
To quell the rage and sorrow
An ounce here
And ounce there
Just to feed the sparrow
I'll not confess
I did my best
And still I bit the bullet
I couldn't prove it
I couldn't do it
And now they see the rest
I did my best
But I must confess
It was me who did it
I let the blood drop
I tore into my skin
I never screamed
I never cried
I wanted to do it
It was all Self Inflicted
… Just for the sake
Of getting through it
Copyright © Mistylove Lopez | Year Posted 2011
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Mistylove Lopez Poem
When I Sleep......
Nightmares haunt me in my sleep
And chase away the pleasant dreams
One by one they steal my sleep
And leave me with a need to flee
These mares they have an evil plan
To steal the sleep from all the land
And as they charge into my dreams
They steal the peace I need to sleep
I lay down now to feed the need
To rest my eyes, I need the sleep
Sandman come and storm near me
I need your help
To get my sleep
Tempest bless me with your clock
Tick and Tock
Please make time stop
Wind and rain and thunder strong
Cease my mind and lull me along
Mother Nature hear my plea
Keep me safe, watch over me
Give me wings to reach my dreams
But keep me safe from these dangerous things
The night mares
They still come for me
But now they find I can't be reached
At last I find a peaceful sleep
With all of thee protecting me
Come now and stay by me
Provide me with
A good night's sleep
But let it end at daylight's break
I am alive
My soul is safe
Copyright © Mistylove Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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Mistylove Lopez Poem
There's no easy way to accept...
When the love goes away
All these years
Leading up to the day...
When you finally walked away
Hidden behind the smile
Of someone who used to love
you
Once a happy child
Now the tormented
Trusted...
Gave in...
Time and time again
Hoping...
Begging...
You would find a way back in
But chance after chance
You blew me away
With your incapacity to say
Angry, sad, disappointed,
betrayed?
I'll never know unless you say
But time is growing short,
You see
I've got a plan
To find my peace
Little did you know
What a mark you could leave
On a tortured child's soul
Burning...
Bleeding...
Tearing deep
No way back
To yesterday
To a time when innocence
believed
There was no such thing as a
wicked
witch
...
And surely you could never be
Yet on this day
I smile to you
Hiding the sad, sad truth
Tormented can only be for so
long
Time enough will teach the soul
There's no way back to yesterday
To a time when I believed
No way forward
From this place...
Where brick walls crumble
And I die within the rubble
~~____________________________________~~
This is the story of a young girl
who killed herself because the
one person
she thought truly loved her turned
his back on her; suddenly acted
as though he hated her, and she
couldn't
understand why...
This is a fictional depiction of a
very possible reality.
Thanks for reading ~ Mistylove
Copyright © Mistylove Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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Mistylove Lopez Poem
Tick...
Tock...
Tick...
Tock...
Watch the sand
Pass through the hour glass
Grain by grain
You're watching it fade
Tick...!
Tock...!
Your time is up.
Sometimes it is too late
The fact is
The minutes do fade
There's never forever
Tomorrow might happen
Then again
We may never see the end of today
Time keeps running
With or without us
Hard as we try
But we cannot outrun it
There is no way
There always will be an end
We never can tell when it will be
But it will be
Time runs out
Without a doubt
There's always an end
Sooner than when...
When we like
When we're ready
When we want?
We never know
We never can tell
Time is tricky that way
It makes us feel like we have forever
Like forever can never end
Well guess what
You missed out
Because time ran out
With the last...
Tick.
Tock.
Now I hope you believe
As well as me
That now's the time
To make it count
To live your life
Without any doubt
Before your last...
Tick...
Tock.
Copyright © Mistylove Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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