Problem
I just can’t understand, we used to be hand in hand, when did it end, I want my best friend, when we used to laugh when we used to play, I’ll always love you but Ill never forget the day, I didn’t want her boyfriend, I just wanted my dad, when I tried to bring it up I prayed you wouldn’t get mad, I don’t think you want us anymore, not as much as you used to, I wonder what’s so different, just what did I do, no matter what it is I could never blame her, but to you I’m the problem so I just say sure, I am sick of doing things I don’t want to do, first I tried to speak up for myself, and it started on you, you called me a name, yet I was still to blame, you always say sorry but still do the same, I remember you used to care and we used to talk, but now you are always to busy to go on our father daughter walk, I see she makes you happy, I see she’s your forever, I’m happy for you but I just won’t say never, you think all I want is money but I just want you back, when you invite her over I don’t give out, I just give up because it’s not the same, it’s not how it used to be, I’m just to blame, in your eyes I feel I’m the definition of problem, if you were asked to spell it, you would spell my name, but only if she’s there only if she came, you can’t blame her unless she’s not there, is that how you feel, will it ever just be us three, or is it just going to be me, all by myself, because I’m fine on my own, when I met her for the first time I should have known. Daddy where have you gone, where did you go, are you still the same or should I just let go, daddy it’s not the same, and it’s always a shame, daddy l need you now, but you won’t understand, just how just how, when did we stop holding hands, I’m running to someone that I don’t think wants me, but those words you said they still haunt me, just don’t come up, is it that easy for you, but if I’m out of the picture, it’s your dream you can pursue, to be with her for the rest of your life, to maybe someday make her your wife, if I left would you call, or not reach out at all, if I left would you text, or would you be at rest, if I left would you smile, or be sad for a while, do you know how much I love you, do you know how much I mean it, if you wanted me I think I would have seen it, I’m holding on tight, but somethings not right, the further I look, the more your not in my sight, the tighter I hold on the more you will slip away, but I can’t help wanting to be with my dad every day.
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Tayah Oconnor
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