Long Every fiber of my being Poems

It was a bitter morning, the ground hotter upon my flesh
I kneeled at the center of the pit on the twentieth day,
Remembering a tune sung so long ago,
A great song grieving for the incessant wars...

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My deplorable emotional collapse. 

Lucky for me, she happened to be in her many hour siestas!

My dear sister amelie came over (previously arranged to pick up some rocks that z mama rolled in a pile)...

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Sometimes, perhaps often when we are young,
we fall in love without knowing or having experienced real love...
that's how we learn... painful at times... happy for a while... but as we grow, we learn.
And when it...

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Angry Face is so Angry with Pink Face, I gesture for her to sit in the chair the farthest from my chair.
She glares at me hard, stomps over and plunks her butt down in my...

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A total Jedi mind f*ck from Hell is what this is. I feel like a nuclear bomb has exploded in 
my mind of Hiroshima proportions and I am on the brink of a Chernobyl meltdown....

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Love Letter 
This is my love letter 
To a beautiful woman 
I hardly know
I do know from observing
Her interaction with others 
She is smart and compassionate
She has chosen a profession
Helping folks on the edge of...

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Some news has a way of crushing you to your core. Now get back up, again you. 
I remember I wanted to go see my friend last night. I remember texting her I was falling...

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In my sleep I find myself 200 to 250 years in the future.
The Earth, at least I think it's the Earth is found to have
Undergone some terrible changes. The ground is no longer
Solid, it is...

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The only way I could say that my life is good is because of my love for Eloah.
I want to be full of faith as Deacon Stephen and stare up at heaven and gaze at...

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All of this time we've been apart, I've been so very thankful for all you gave to me
With your kind heart and generous soul, you shown me love and opened my eyes so I could...

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This ones for you. John 

Cheers to the last straw! 
You drew it and smashed it.
You broke it and slashed it.
This is the end to your lies and your manipulation.
This is the final goodbye to...

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The greatest joy I have ever known is knowing you are calling on Monday at five thirty in
the morning before school.
"Hello, how are you?" and "I'll talk to you later."
Every word from hello to goodbye...

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I never meant to hurt you!
I would rather die than hurt those closest to me

I am so sorry!!

I can not explain why my own feelings consumed my very soul

I was selfish I know
Only thinking of...

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BROKEN LOVE
To my daughters, Stacey & Stephanie

The minute I learned I was pregnant 
I was scared
I didn’t know a thing about being a mom
I came from an abusive, angry environment
And didn’t understand what a precious...

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For the longest time, I could not speak your name.
I could not write it; I could not bear to think it. 

I was angry.

I was too young, too vulnerable, too powerless.
There was no justice for...

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Ghosts from my past still haunt.
They smirk, smile and taunt.
The choices I made at the time seemed so right
but I wonder now that I’ve seen the light.

The strings tug on my heart threatening to rip...

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If I would have only known
The day you left would be the last.
The last time I would see your smile,
Hear your voice, hear you laugh.
If I would have only known.

What would I do differently?
What could...

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Dedicated to my Dad who lost his short battle w/ Colon Cancer on June 18,2013

I hate you Cancer
Your vile evil and cruel
You don't care who you hurt
I'll never forget that day
I'll always hate you for...

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Love me,

I beg of you, please.
You may not understand, but I need you now,
And always, though I may never cross your mind somehow.

Love me, I promise to love you with every fiber of my being,
Love...

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To my sweetest,dearest love
 
You have made me feel like I never thought I could
I smile more than I ever wanted,
My hearts beats a million miles a minute when I hear your name or think...

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Heading south and returning from an early morning run on a delivery route,
I came upon the top of a hill which was the route I always took. But that
morning was different, one that would be...

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Out of the dark, a lambent, lovely day has dawned
In silvery brilliance the early morning is drowned
In the sapphire sky, the sun has appeared on his diurnal shift 
Over the firmament the vagrant clouds aimlessly...

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How easily you return,
Within this mind's hindsight,
Never knowing how the swelling,
Gaping hole of your absence,
Weighs me down heavily,
With the confusion of your presence
In my dreams...

I crave substance,
Though well be my visions and tastes,
Vibrant...real be this...

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My Father


I am special because my Father is also the Father of the world. 
We are all His special children, for on His finger the earth has twirled.

Though my earthly Father abandoned me, He was...

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Replay
I see your face
The memories we share
Underneath that starlit sky 
When you were still here
Before we muttered goodbye
Replay
I feel those butterflies
That mixture of emotion pulsing through my veins
The feeling of suffocating
Just from saying your name
Recap...

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