R.I.P

As I sat there, in one of my most familiar settings my mood completely changed gears but for once it wasn't going downhill At first, it felt as if I was just numb almost melancholy, even but I think it just took a while for the mood to click in my mind The feeling I was going through was one I hand't experianced in... ...god knows how long a sense of relief A cool, soothing calm slowly took over I almost smiled I had gained a tiny ounce of the hope that I lost so long ago This time I actually believed in the normal crap I usually try to tell myself I was going to get my stuff together really make an effort to get my life on the right track I walked out the door and took a breath of fresh, pure air It felt as if a large burden was finally lifted off my shoulders I walk to the car with the mindframe that I can make it through anything... ...The dark, mysterious shadow that I din't seem to notice drives away On the ground I could tell I only had a few minutes left if that I think I still see the cloud of smoke from the gunshot in the air but it could just be the haze covering my eyes I finally smile "Figures" The last words I'm able to get out before my last gasp of fresh, pure air Marcus Jones R.I.P.