All My Pretty Ones

 Father, this year's jinx rides us apart 
where you followed our mother to her cold slumber; 
a second shock boiling its stone to your heart,
leaving me here to shuffle and disencumber
you from the residence you could not afford:
a gold key, your half of a woolen mill,
twenty suits from Dunne's, an English Ford,
the love and legal verbiage of another will, 
boxes of pictures of people I do not know.
 
I touch their cardboard faces.
 They must go.
 

But the eyes, as thick as wood in this album,
hold me.
 I stop here, where a small boy
waits in a ruffled dress for someone to come.
.
.

for this soldier who holds his bugle like a toy 
or for this velvet lady who cannot smile.

Is this your father's father, this Commodore 
in a mailman suit? My father, time meanwhile
has made it unimportant who you are looking for.
 
I'll never know what these faces are all about.
 
I lock them into their book and throw them out.
 

Tlis is the yellow scrapbook that you began
the year I was born; as crackling now and wrinkly
as tobacco leaves: clippings where Hoover outran 
the Democrats, wiggling his dry finger at me 
and Prohibition; news where the Hindenburg went 
down and recent years where you went flush 
on war.
 This year, solvent but sick, you meant
to marry that pretty widow in a one-month rush.
 
But before you had that second chance, I cried 
on your fat shoulder.
 Three days later you died.
 

These are the snapshots of marriage, stopped in places.
 
Side by side at the rail toward Nassau now; 
here, with the winner's cup at the speedboat races, 
here, in tails at the Cotillion, you take a bow,


here, by our kennel of dogs with their pink eyes, 
running like show-bred pigs in their chain-link pen; 
here, at the horseshow where my sister wins a prize; 
Now I fold you down, my drunkard, my navigator, 
my first lost keeper, to love or look at later.



I hold a five-year diary that my mother kept 
for three years, telling all she does not say 
of your alcoholic tendency.
 You overslept, 
she writes.
 My God, father, each Christmas Day 
with your blood, will I drink down your glass 
of wine? The diary of your hurly-burly years 
goes to my shelf to wait for my age to pass.
 
Only in this hoarded span will love persevere.
 
Whether you are pretty or not, I outlive you, 
bend down my strange face to yours and forgive you.

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