Did I

Did I do enough being your mum and your dad? I tried to give you all so much, and get the things I never had, but I never saw me doing it all on my own, I wanted you to have a mum and dad, a family, a home. I blamed myself for so many years, as I lay in my bed and cried silent tears, was i still bad inside from the years of abuse and pain, I tried so hard to hide it but I slipped up now and again, Is it really my fault, am I the one to blame? doubt upon doubt, till I am driven insane. A dad for my boy to learn fishing, and stripping dirty bikes, going camping in the woods, and weekend long hikes. For my girls a dad who was gentle,and always on hand with a cuddle, and be there to help when maths got them into a muddle! And for me? A man who stood firmly by my side, but who is honest and open and has nothing to hide. Do you all have happy childhood memories? Did I make it fun, was it enough with just me, as we played, laughed and sung? I love you all so much but I know you had days you were sad Tell me, did I do enough being your mum and your dad?