My head is not working

I want to do all so I don't do anything at all. My heart is beating fast and I don't know why. I am not attending at tutoring every monday because I am scared people in my class are going to laugh about me, He was getting along with her but it didn't hurted me that much, participating I was, mistakes making now I am okay with, I've got my physics test but I am happy that I didn't failed completely, some were cheating but the teacher didn't look out, I was happy with my little Orange dress and the jeans beneath. It was kinda fresh today. I am sorry mom I didn't told you, but I am scared to fail class, because it is most likely, since I only have one A, in sports, were my arms feel already numb, and I find myself asking people which is much more easy. Mom, I fell on the matrass yesterday, my shoulders hurt a little too. Mom, I am sorry, but my mind thinks of the worst. No wonder It is most likely to happen. Mom? I was about to cry but now they are already dried out without letting go. Because I know, nothing's going to change after I posted this poem. Mom?